Torn

I am completely tearing myself apart inside. This is horrible, but amazing at the same time. I hate it, but I love it.

What am I supposed to do when I've had someone, two someones, tell me they care a lot about me and all that jazz.

And I mean...I care a lot about them too. But not enough to do what they want me to do. I always tell myself things like 'In a few years they won't even care who you were or who you are.' But I don't know that.

We're in high school. We shouldn't care this much about relationships. It's wrong. But...GAH! Just shut up brain. SHUT. UP.

Jebus this pisses me off. I hate being so confused.

I'm over here.












But I'm way over here.

Help me.
Please.
I don't ask often.
I just need some help.
I'm praying loud and clear here.
Please......



Just help me.